A little bit at a time

A few weeks ago, I received a doctor bill that was WAY too high and it triggered a very vivid memory from my childhood.

I remember standing in our galley-style kitchen with royal blue countertops standing somewhere between the pantry door and the wall where my mom always hangs her calendar and listening to my Mama on the phone.  I remember that I had to look WAY up to my Mama’s face. For those of you who know her, she’s 5’3”, so I was likely very young. She had this stressed look on her face and she was haggling with an insurance company, as I recall, about a bill she had received.  The thought went through my head, “I don’t ever want to grow up. How would I know who to call? How would I know a bill was too much? How will I even pay for bills at all?” It was an overwhelming moment in my little girl heart.

But when I opened that bill, I almost immediately made a phone call to the doctor’s billing office.  I left a message.  Some hours later I got a call back verifying everything was correct on their end and to call the lab. I did so, heard the wait was over ten minutes and so opted to update all the insurance info online.

It was annoying, but fairly painless. I have since checked and the matter has been resolved.

What I didn’t understand as a little girl, but do now as a wife and Mama, is that know-how comes a little bit at a time.  It comes with experience. It comes from reading and listening.  I knew exactly within two phone calls and a couple mouse-clicks what to do.  No stress, no anxiety.

Our Heavenly Father works this way.  There have been many times in my life where the reverse has happened of what I experienced as a little girl.  “Why did He wait until NOW to teach me this? I sure wish I would have known this years ago.” But the Lord knows what we can handle.  He sees our hearts and minds and knows what we need to know when we need to know it.

Another thing I didn’t realize as a kiddo that I get now is that when my Mom had to call people, she was often talking to people who were experts in a certain area and was able to glean the information she needed for the moment.

The Lord brings “experts” our way as well.  Are you facing cancer? Maybe there’s a sister in your church that has faced it and has won the battle.  Are you depressed? Perhaps there is someone you know who walked a very dark, deep valley and made it through to the other side.  How about the death of a loved one? I’m sure you can think of someone who knows exactly what that road looks and feels like.

Along our foster & adoption journey, the Lord has sent us many experts to rely heavily on. Their experience and willingness to just be there for us has been a priceless treasure. Only in eternity will their value be truly accurately measured.

Are you an “expert”? Has the Lord allowed a difficult circumstance to come your way? Did you “beat the level”? Do you have pointers for a sister in need? I would venture to say you do. Ask the Lord to lay someone on your heart for whom to pray and be available. It could be just what they need. It could be just what you need, too.

Blessings and much love,


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