“And he said unto me, My grace is sufficient for thee: for my strength is made perfect in weakness…” ~ II Corinthians 12:9
Hello Dear Friends,
I know it’s been a while since I posted. There is a reason for that. It’s kinda weak, but here it is.
I’m depleted. Spent. Exhausted. We’re dealing with the termination trial for Little Miss’s mom’s rights. It’s dragging on and on. And my heart just hurts. It hurts for our little girl. It hurts for our boys, who share the same mother. And it hurts for her.
The trial is dredging up so many unpleasant thoughts and memories and I just can’t right now.
To top it all off, I was informed by the Dept. of Justice last Friday and I will be called upon to testify. I can’t think of anything I’d rather do less at the moment.
We’ve worked so hard at cultivating this delicate, fragile, tattered relationship with the children’s birth mom and I feel like it’s swirling and sliding down a sink drain and I’m grasping at it with my hands as it slips into the darkness below.
I know that the Lord wasn’t surprised by that phone call on Friday. I know that He already knows what I will be asked, what I will say, and the outcome of the trial. But I have to repeat that to myself every single day to keep grasping tight to that belief. For His grace is, indeed, sufficient.
In spite of all of that, Foster Care is so precious to me — so near and dear to my heart — that I can’t just let it pass.
So I’ll share with you the thoughts I formulated in May of 2015.
And to those of you who have been holding us up in your prayers, thank you.
From the bottom of my heart.
Blessings and much love,